still untitled.

13 april 2005. 1:25pm

this is the 2nd official post after having created my account here a month ago. well, not really official since its still untitled. a lot has happened. i went to Puerto Galera and finally got the vacation i've been longing for so long. 3 days at the beach, a great tan, a week of being a bum (drank my heart out, slept 'til i can't sleep no more), a month of pretending to be in love - i'm still not okay!

i have no realizations to announce after having been out of work for too long. i get irritated at night when i'm supposed to be at my best. people and their simple actions seem to piss me off to the point where i just dont want to talk to them anymore. i'm intolerant now.

last night, i just had a squabble with a friend. "squabble?" "violent isn't it?" yes, it is. childish and violent. i didn't get hurt by what she said, i hurt her. and i seemed to enjoy it. i enjoyed the fact that i've hurt her. evil.

well, here's the thing. i've been so different after all that's happened. "after what happened?" after all that's happened with my life. i should be, right? but i'm not happy with the transformation. - unfinished.